You know whats strange about writing here is that this makes the second time over the years that somebody has written me a note just to ask if I know where someone is.

Years ago, there was this dude who was a faithful reader that just disappeared off the internet, I guess. I had his friends writing me and stuff asking if I knew where he was. I didn't know. I mean, we weren't personal friends. Ocassionally, I'd leave a note. Strange thing now, I can't remember his users name or anything.

Wonder what happened to him?

Kind of like, whats up with Candy? She's cool and all but at times, I'd read her and think, is somebody else writing this stuff. This doesn't sound like her at all. And yeah, while I lay it on line more so than most, she could really be a big mystery.

Naturally, I've had a few who have thought the same about me. Like some chick was saying..this don't jive..is their more?

Well, yeah, there was.

I'd started writing here what seems like a thousand years ago now while I was still in school. It was like right after 9/11. This chick I was wanting to see at the time had seen what happened and we made this pack that we'd both start diaries, you know. So we started a blog at the website that now doesn't exist anymore. I checked one day, and it wasn't there anymore, and all my entries were gone, she recovered a few and put them together I think at pitas, but then we didn't keep at it so that went away too, if I knew the password, I might get some of the entries back, but I don't & I doubt it. So I just continued here. If you read my first entry, its like, "Whats up with this guy?" "Where's the begining?"

Now Kat doesn't even have a diary. I kind of thought she'd always write(she'd always make me feel bad if I didn't write..although, I'm sure she wishes I hadn't written some shit about her). Even now, but she's in college and sort of taking care of her kid. Which isn't mine by the way. She moved away, and I haven't heard from her in a long time.

So just like online or off line, you lose friends and gain a few too.

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